Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Waiting For The End-Linkin Park

This is not the endThis is not the beginning,Just a voice like a riotRocking every revisionBut you listen to the toneAnd the violent rhythmThough the words sound steadySomething empty's within 'em

We say Yeah!With fists flying up in the airLike we're holding onto somethingThat's invisible there,'Cause we're living at the mercy ofThe pain and the fearUntil we dead it, Forget it,Let it all disappear.

Waiting for the end to comeWishing I had strength to standThis is not what I had plannedIt's out of my control....

Flying at the speed of lightThoughts were spinning in my headSo many things were left unsaidIt's hard to let you go...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,I know how it feels to lie,All I wanna doIs trade this life for something newHolding on to what I haven't got

Sitting in an empty roomTrying to forget the pastThis was never meant to last,I wish it wasn't so...[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/waiting-for-the-end-lyrics-linkin-park.html ]

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,I know how it feels to lie,All I wanna doIs trade this life for something newHolding on to what I haven't got

What was left when that fire was gone?I thought it felt right but that right was wrongAll caught up in the eye of the stormAnd trying to figure out what it's like moving onAnd i don't even know what kind of things I've saidMy mouth kept moving and my mind went deadSo, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?The hardest part of ending Is starting again!!

All I wanna doIs trade this life for something newHolding on to what i haven't got...

This is not the endThis is not the beginning,Just a voice like a riotRocking every revisionBut you listen to the toneAnd the violet rhythmThough the words sound steadySomething empty's within 'em(Holding on to what i haven't got)

We say Yeah!With fists flying up in the airLike we're holding onto somethingThat's invisible there,'Cause we're living at the mercy ofThe pain and the fearUntil we dead it, Forget it,Let it all disappear(Holding on to what i haven't got!)



Sunday, December 11, 2011

今天是个阳光灿烂的好日子

虽然连着好几天没有睡好,不过今天心情却不错。起床后去Shiyi家了一趟,看了看过阵子自己要住的地方,玩了玩她家的点点,还蹭了几口Cheesecake Factory的Cheesecake,聊了聊有的没的。过两天她就要回国了,不过还在为Final奋斗着,也就两三天了大家都加油!!临走前还给了我个惊喜,生日礼物,一双赤裸裸的华丽丽的高跟鞋,内心的野性还是被她发现了。谢谢Shiyi,好开心!

回到家查查邮箱,发现了第二件喜事,USCIS终于把我的EAD卡给寄来了,能按时开始工作,太好了,下个月的生活就没那么惨淡了,房租生活费应该也比较有着落了。

外面阳光格外好,虽然天气很冷,可是有太阳的地方还是很暖和。一大早出去走一走,人心情也好很多,因为自己屋里没有阳光,整天窝在家里,人 也没有什么精神。

这下子除了Final,也没有什么琐碎的事情要烦心了,那就好好复习考试吧!考完试就可以去Orlando Disney 哈皮啦!

还有,替Shiyi许个愿,希望她顺利拿到Unilever的Offer!大家一直都很努力,一定会有好结果的!

Thursday, December 1, 2011

又失眠了。。。

纯粹自己作怪,上课前喝了杯咖啡,结果活生生又睡不着了。想想这学期过的课真快啊,还有最后一周课,就要期末考试了,就好像刚开始一样。
又到12月了,天气也很配合的一下子冷了下来。回想下自己的11月,真是过的揪心啊,还好结果是好的,接下来除了期末就是些麻烦又琐碎的事情,需要的就是静下心来一件一件的解决。

前两天在家看求婚大作战,和Lin两人哭得不成样子,以前其实看过一遍,不知道这次为什么反应这么大。想想可能是因为年纪大了,心里事情多了,触碰到某些事情,便一发不可收拾。Lin说这片子真是颠覆她的世界观,我想我懂她的意思。

以前一直以为自己很坚强,是一个懂得向前看的人,从来没有后悔过自己任何一个决定,而且也颇以为豪。可看了片子之后,高中的一幕幕像幻灯片一样一张一张在脑海中闪过,不禁想知道如果能改变当时的自己,现在的结果会是怎样。也许并不是真的想要改变,只是好奇如果改变了,如今的人生会变成什么样子。

直到今天,心中最美好的记忆仍然是高中那三年,虽然短暂,却回味无穷。从喜欢的偶像,知心的朋友,到花痴的对象,占据着20多年回忆的绝大部分。之后的五六年是怎么过来的,好像完全空白了。还记得那时候高一上课基本不听,四个人笑不停地笑,每天嘻嘻哈哈也不知道再乐什么;四个人下课去食堂打饭,骗GG去打汤然后不还她钱,逼着她跟我们急;改编最流行的歌词,在KTV里面瞎唱;高二分班后和丫丫整天写莫名其妙的信,变着法子整读信的人;大扫除后和GG站在科技楼的床边看学长打球,一站一个钟头;在两栋楼之间的玻璃走廊突然看见教室里的学长,激动地原地打转;最值得纪念的还是我们的漫画本,大概也只有我们四个人看得懂,当年的梦想还是等有钱了,把我们的漫画本出版一下,哈哈。真的是青春,无极限的青春。真怀念啊,每次和GG聊天,她都会说想回到高中,我还想说怎么这么幼稚,可是自己不是也一样,只是逞强不愿意嘴上说而已。四个人真是分隔四地,还分的东南西北。也只有GG一个人工作稳定,其余三个还仍在漂泊中,等到大家都定下来,也不知还有没有机会聚在一起疯疯癫癫。

人的记忆真是奇妙,我记性不好,自己已经领教过了,可是却偶尔会突然想起已经不知道跑到哪里去了的记忆。

大概快毕业了,又开始回忆了。阶段性的念旧是可以的,不过人总的向前看,没有时间机器,也没有精灵,只好一分一秒的过了不是吗。还有两周,虽然觉得自己以后有机会还是会读书,不过这次又是人生一个阶段的总结,来美国一年半的总结,要给自己一份完美的答卷。